Snuggle Bugs

Today we found out that Scott's parents are coming to help us move. They are going to bring a trailer to move some of the bigger things. We were supposed to have Donovan through to Sunday night, since it was our weekend, but we gave him the opption of going back to Mommy or seeing Grandpa and Grandma. Donovan picked Mommy of course. He hasn't seen her in two weeks and is ready to go back to her house. Before he left he came and snuggled in my lap. He told me "I'm going to snuggle for 10 minutes." and then proceeded to count to ten, at which point he went back to playing on the computer. He then later snuggled with Daddy before they headed out the door. I was not ready for him to leave. That afternoon as Gavin and I walked to the store I felt Donovan's absense keenly. He is such a chatter box, and I missed his ten million questions as I walked with Gavin. I found myself walking faster just so I could get home and turn the television on. It made me realize how much I appreciate having Donovan around, not only to play with his brother but to keep me company!

Gavin is as much a cuddle bug as Donovan is. Tonight I knew he was ready for bed when he crawled over to me with his sippy cup in hand. He handed the sippy to me and then crawled into my lap. He burrowed himself into the crook of my arm and just sat there contentedly. After awhile he sat so queitly that I thought he slept. I looked down at him, he looked up at me with his beautiful blue eyes and just smiled sweetly. I picked him up and carried him to his crib. He snuggled into his crib with his little behind up in the air. I laid one of his blankies on top of him and he giggled. He just loves his blankies. Gavin has discovered that Mommy can roll her tongue, and ever since he will stick his tongue out at me and wait until I roll mine for him. He just giggles. He does it all day long, including tonight as he snuggled in bed.

Catching up

So much has happened since I last wrote in my blog. We lost the baby in the beginning of June. I thought post par tum depression was difficult!!! Someone said that the depression experienced after the loss of a pregnancy could be comparable! I guess they were right. It took quite a while to get over the sadness and sorrow. We get to start trying again next month, but I have so many fears surrounding trying again. We'll just see how things go.

Onto exciting news! We have to move. We found a cute 2 bedroom duplex about 20 miles from Scott's work and about 20-30 miles from mine. Yup, I got a new job. I am now officially a teacher. My first day is Monday. I will be teaching Language Arts and Spanish. I'm nervous but excited.

This afternoon I realized that I don't have a baby anymore. I hadn't yet had time to clear off lunch from the table and I walked in to Gavin sitting at the kitchen table with a fork, he likes to play with utensils while he's eating, and eating enchilada's off a plate with his left hand. He just looked so cute and grown up. He has also started to drink out of a cup with no lid. Granted I have to give him only a quarter inch of liquid. He still has a tendency to drink what he wants and fling the cup half way across the room. He still isn't walking. He is just so content to crawl. We had him evaluated and he is measuring developmentally at 11 months instead of the 15 months they have him at because he was a preemie. I know he'll catch up when he is ready. It's kind of funny, he was in such a hurry to get here, but now he takes his own sweet time.

We took the boys to the water park today. Donovan had a blast going up and down the water slide. He wanted to go down the river by himself on a floaty, but he was scared. He's such a schmooze. He just came up to me and said "You look pretty" After I said thanks he goes "your welcome, Beautiful, cakes!" Where he comes up with this stuff I don't know. I can't believe in a week he starts Kindergarten. Wow, my boys are growing up.

Ah, the pleasures of a new talker! Gavin does not say the bane of all mothers, NO! Instead he will look at you really intently and emphatically state STOP! He is very good at expressing the "sto" but hasn't learned how to put on the final "p" it is so cute that I have to giggle each time he says it. I'm sure as he continues I will stop thinking how adorable it is!

Gavin has turned into a monkey boy! He has figured out how to climb onto the coffee table. Unfortunately while he is up there he likes to clear it of all its contents, which include some heavy candles. He has also learned how to climb onto the dining room chairs. He just gets up there and giggles.

Donovan and Gavin love playing with each other. Last night the boys began to wrestle. Gavin would climb up onto Donovan and pull him down. They would just giggle and laugh. I wish that I had a camera handy. It was a memory I would like to have kept. Tonight after the boys had their bath Daddy put Gavin on Donovan's bed. Oh, he was so excited. He sat on his bum and bounced. Donovan climbed up and the two of them raced and played. I'm so glad to see them play together. It has been wonderful.

We have had Donovan since Friday morning. It has been nice to have him. He has started to eat on his own and ask for fluids, so he is on the mend! He does get winded very easily and is rather grouchy. He hates it when Gavin touches him.

Gavin loves having his brother here to visit. He just wants to hug on him, pinch him, play with him. He doesn't get that his brother needs a little space. He has a fever today, and is most likely cutting teeth.

I'm pretty sure that we are going to lose this baby. It is only a matter of time. I'm struggling with it. I asked Scott for another blessing, but he hasn't given me one. I'm a bit frustrated, but since I haven't reminded him it isn't his fault I guess. I just hope that things progress naturally so that I don't have to have surgery.

Is that MY child!

Donovan has been rather ill for that past week. Today his mother took him to the hospital again because she was worried that he was dehydrated. She was right. After IV fluids the nurse gave him some juice. He spit the juice into the nurses face. When his mom told me I was mortified! I can't believe that he would do something like that!

Gavin has been going to sleep on his own for the past week. It is still so hard to hear him cry when we first put him down. I know that if he goes more than 15 minutes I will pick him up, but listen to that!!! No more crying! He's finally asleep. He has also started to do some of the cutest things. He makes motor noises when he plays with cars. Isn't that just too cute? He also will yell in bathrooms to hear himself echo. He waves and says hi over and over again. And he just giggles when you say hi back. He is growing up so fast!

What a week

The last couple of weeks have been harrowing at best! On May 14th I thought I had appendicitis. Scott took me to the hospital and after a battery of tests the Doctor came back and told me "your pregnant." Well, we were hoping to add on to our family sometime this summer, but I didn't think it would happen sooooo fast! It has been a hard couple of weeks with some fear of miscarriage. Things seem to be going okay on that front now, but as always pregnancy is a wait and see venture.

Donovan developed viral pneumonia. He spent 4 days in Cardinal Glennon Children's Hospital. He came home on Monday, but it is still touch and go. If his fever doesn't come down then he will be headed for the hospital again tomorrow. We were supposed to start our two week vacation with him last Saturday, but hopefully we will get to pick him up tomorrow.