Catching up

So much has happened since I last wrote in my blog. We lost the baby in the beginning of June. I thought post par tum depression was difficult!!! Someone said that the depression experienced after the loss of a pregnancy could be comparable! I guess they were right. It took quite a while to get over the sadness and sorrow. We get to start trying again next month, but I have so many fears surrounding trying again. We'll just see how things go.

Onto exciting news! We have to move. We found a cute 2 bedroom duplex about 20 miles from Scott's work and about 20-30 miles from mine. Yup, I got a new job. I am now officially a teacher. My first day is Monday. I will be teaching Language Arts and Spanish. I'm nervous but excited.

This afternoon I realized that I don't have a baby anymore. I hadn't yet had time to clear off lunch from the table and I walked in to Gavin sitting at the kitchen table with a fork, he likes to play with utensils while he's eating, and eating enchilada's off a plate with his left hand. He just looked so cute and grown up. He has also started to drink out of a cup with no lid. Granted I have to give him only a quarter inch of liquid. He still has a tendency to drink what he wants and fling the cup half way across the room. He still isn't walking. He is just so content to crawl. We had him evaluated and he is measuring developmentally at 11 months instead of the 15 months they have him at because he was a preemie. I know he'll catch up when he is ready. It's kind of funny, he was in such a hurry to get here, but now he takes his own sweet time.

We took the boys to the water park today. Donovan had a blast going up and down the water slide. He wanted to go down the river by himself on a floaty, but he was scared. He's such a schmooze. He just came up to me and said "You look pretty" After I said thanks he goes "your welcome, Beautiful, cakes!" Where he comes up with this stuff I don't know. I can't believe in a week he starts Kindergarten. Wow, my boys are growing up.